He will be here tomorrow and I don't want to get emotional. I am hoping that I can keep myself together. For his mom. I don't want it to be awkward for her or myself.I don't know how I will do it. I am going crazy thinking about it. I am so hurt. I can't think straight. I am too hurt to not cry and cry but I can't do that tomorrow. I will have to try. If I can get through it then I won't be hurt by him much more than it already has.

I want to cry. I need to cry. I have such a strong urge to cry.