Familiar phone call

CK's mom just called on the phone and ask if I wanted anything from the store. I often say no anyways but this time was different. I felt like I had to say no. I didn't want anything but usually I would ask for a small this or that to make her feel better about making an effort but not this time. It feels different now. It scares me that she is still being so nice. It will only make leaving harder.

Why am I still sitting in this house? It makes no sense. I don't belong here. Although I don't belong anywhere I definitely don't belong in this house. They are still family to me but it can't be possible anymore. I feel out of place now. A girl pitied.