I went on my Facebook today and CK had disconnected our relationship status. So fast. I don't know why that affected me but it did. It made me cry. It was another confirmation that it was all gone. Nine years of my life has gone to shit. So fast. He has already moved on. He is over me. It hurts and I don't know how to deal with it. I don't know how to process it. It just hurts that much more now. Three weeks later and I am am hurting all over again.

This is it. Everything that I had is gone. Nine years are gone just like that. I can't stand it.